I am having a major attack right now. Every so often I experience these overwhelming feelings and no matter how hard I try, I cannot stop them from taking over me. I know you're probably wondering what the devil I'm talking about. I used to have a bad habit of leaving things open ended (like questions). The response could be just about anything and because of this, I have very little closure when it comes to my dealings with some of the guys I used to know. It's almost like small relapses. For the most part, I'm in recovery but every now and then something triggers a craving. And I could really use a Georgia Peach right now. Every time I see him, I relapse. I fall right back into place. It's like no time has passed. We're both well aware that things are different in our individual lives but it feels as though nothing has changed between us. I want to circle back so bad but I keep reminding myself that there is a reason he is black history. But...when I see him, none of that matters. I just want to be with him. I just miss him--period.
Somebody help me! I'm going through withdrawals. (Or at least this is what I'd imagine them to feel like.)
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