Friday, October 17, 2008

The Secret Life of Bees

I try not to cry in the same way I try not to get angry because once the flood gates are opened, it takes more than a little bit to stop the flow. So, I am proud to say that I made it through the entire movie, "The Secret Life of Bees" and did not drop a tear. Plenty gathered but none dropped. However, once the credits rolled, I began to feel like I should have cried. Sounds strange, I know, but it wasn't until this moment that I realized I could actually use a good cry. I really related to "May" (Sophie Okonedo's character). She is very empathic and although I don't burst into tears and song at the drop of a hat the way she does, I often find myself taking on the emotional baggage of others. I'm sure it sounds strange but there are times I enter a room and my heart just becomes heavy. It can be very overwhelming and I often blame myself for being too sensitive.

Because I can feel everything (or so it seems), I want to get involved in everything but the reality is, I am human and I cannot do it all. I'm never satisfied. It's an insatiable hunger and it leaves me undone. I know May's anguish and distress too well. I often disguise my affliction behind humor and sarcasm but those that truly know can see. When it gets to be too much, I retreat...

...and cry.

7 comments:

Jamie said...

The Secret Life of Bees is such an amazing book. I really need to see the movie!

Nicole said...

Yeah, you should! It's really, really good!!

Stacy said...

I haven't seen the movie yet either! Man! But I do know what you mean, I don't cry often but when I do I need to have time because I'll be at it for a while.

Nicole said...

Yeah, it wears me out!!! So, I try not to when I can help it! But sometimes,...

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jwriter said...

Was it a good movie?

Mr. Consistently Inconsistent said...

I saw the film this evening, and even though tears dont come out of my eyes, I found different parts moving...but why did it keep on reminding me of Black Snake Moan?

Oh, and yes, Alicia Keys can get it more than ever now!