It's Friday. I'm sitting in my parked car under the veil of night's darkness watching the raindrops join the river water. Thoughts overwhelm me as I try to distract myself by singing but the song's lyrics only trigger a descend into deeper thought. People come and go all around me (mostly cars packed with young girls parking while they go off with their boyfriends to do who knows what) but after a while, all I hear is the mid tempo taps of the rain off the car's windshield. I don't think I'm even singing anymore. I'm absent and lost in thought...until my phone rings.
I don't really feel like speaking but I manage to say, Hello?
...No response. I listen a little while longer then repeat, Mm. Hello?
It's him. What up?
I grimaced. I hate when you say that.
What's wrong? Why do you sound so down? I smiled on the inside but it didn't translate to my face.
Nothing. I lied. I just didn't want to share. I planned to avoid acknowledgment as long as I could. I was mad at him but I couldn't bare telling him because it seemed so silly.
You don't have any reason to be sad. Where are you? He was always so sincere. (That's why I loved him.)
At the park. I still didn't feel much like talking but for him, I'd try.
At the park?! He repeated as if I hadn't spoken the King's English. What are you doing at the park?
Nothing. I paused. Thinking.
Thinking about what? I knew he would say that so, I fixed my mouth to lie again.
Nothing. (This response was rapidly growing old and I could hear the aggravation in his voice.)
He started to pose another question but instead said, I'll be there in a minute.
I couldn't help myself. The tears rolled down my face just as soon as I hung up the phone. I didn't want him to see me crying so I tried to wipe them away but for every one I swiped, two more fell in its place. Just as the well ran dry, I looked over my shoulder and he stood there in the rain. I unlocked the door and he got in. Neither of us spoke. I rose from my slumped position, met his embrace, and I have no idea what happened after that.
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