Wednesday, March 4, 2009


Can you keep a secret?

I used to think I'd go crazy without the gift but now it seems like I'm going crazy because of the gift. I played today but it just didn't feel the same and I don't know what to do with myself (or the gift, now). I used to play because it simply felt so good. It didn't matter what the circumstances may have been. I played. Now I play when I have to and that's it. I even try to avoid playing actually! I never thought it would be me but that's me. I don't even mention my gift most of the time (obviously aside from the times I've mentioned it on this blog). When I do talk about it, I speak of it in past tense or refer to it in the same way one would an afterthought.
As selfish (or silly) as this might sound, I feel like it used to be "my little thing." No one knew how special it was to me. I couldn't walk by a piano without at least touching it (literally, no exaggeration). I used to love the instrument. I'd put in my favorite CD and play along. I seamlessly went from one tune to the next. I'd play for hours if uninterrupted. That is, until the word got out...
So. Now, I sing when I'm alone and think no one's listening. But shhhhh!! Don't tell anybody!


Craigjc said...

We'd love to hear the gift. Youtube was made for people like you. Your destiny awaits!

Unbreakable said...

hey you have a gift keep on using it, i wish really do wish i knew how to play, i really really want to learn.